Trust Myself? Or Trust You?

Originally written January 17, 2023 on Instagram

In 2013 my daughter came home from school and said they learned about how animals are killed for us to eat - she wanted to not eat meat anymore. I knew absolutely NOTHING about being vegetarian, so that started my research on this topic. I wanted to make sure she had everything she needed nutritionally. Shortly afterwards I followed suit and became vegetarian too. I started seeing this unfamiliar word "vegan" come up in my research. One page/website that I was really drawn to was RawGanic Vegan.
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After a few months of watching, learning, and observing I did my first ever juice fast. Several months later I started studying to become a coach at Health Mastery Institute.
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The more I cleaned up my diet and healed my body, I started getting flashbacks of my abuse as a child. In 2015 I confronted my father, John Kautman Sr, telling him I had memories of the sexual abuse by his hands. He denied it, of course. This was the last time I communicated with him. I also confronted my mother, because she knew about the abuse and did nothing. She also denied it, and after a few months, I also cut contact with her and every single other family member because the abuse is so rampant, and I have not spoken to them since. I remember telling my dad, if I can't trust myself, how can I trust what anyone else says?
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Before I cut contact, my mom brought up false memory syndrome. If you are not aware, that theory was completely debunked. It was made up by a pedophile psychologist who sexually abused his own daughter and she tried to go public with it.
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I'll share the texts with my dad when I cut contact back in 2015 in the next post, as it's important to share and highlight certain aspects of narcissism.
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My words above are my perceptions, opinions and experiences alone.
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