Don’t Let Fear Stop You

My last post was from February this year, that’s 9 months. I have felt that I needed to share about the abuse I experience since 2022. I tried to ignore it, let other people share and hold space and support them, and just allow my own abuse to stay hidden.

The truth is, I was too scared to share myself. I was afraid of what others would think about me, but more so, I was afraid of what my family might say when someone googles their name and my experiences of suffering abuse by their hands, starts coming up.

As I said in the ‘Text Messages from 2015’ blog post, I don’t think children ever WANT to actually hurt their parents. Even when their parents did horrific disgusting things to them for years. I was still reluctant to share because I didn’t want my words to negatively affect my parents. And most people never tell a soul for that same reason.

But then I came to the realization that what I am sharing and will continue to share, are FACTS. Not assumptions, not lies, not hear say, but real experiences of different kinds of abuse. Some abuses that a lot of people would have suffered in most households as children that have been “normalized”, and some abuses that are taboo, unspoken because they are so vile that they are never meant to leave the four walls they happened within. The kind of abuses that cause severe trauma to be triggered later in life, or lay dormant for decades before full blown PTSD and/or panic attacks unexpectedly surfaces from out of “no where”.

I decided that I will no longer be the holder of your secrets, especially for people who harmed me, traumatized me, and tried to keep me small, quiet and meek. That’s who I WAS because that’s who you raised me to be, but that’s not who I AM anymore.

Long gone are the days when I would “keep the peace” and bite my tongue. The abuse I suffered, will no longer be hidden. I am not the one hiding in shame for being abused, YOU are the one hiding in shame for the abuse you inflicted.

I have nothing to hide. You have everything to hide.

You might have had the power when I was a child, but the tables have turned. Not only have they turned, they are getting fucking cleared and flipped over.

My words above are my perceptions, opinions and experiences alone.
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